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September 20th, 2010

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Tall-tale-telling imp in the making.

 

My dad is a master storyteller who always gets the punchline or dramatic pause just right. My siblings and I spent many nights perched on the side of our beds listening wide-eyed and rapt to tales of my dad’s haunted childhood or how his grandpa went into a coal mine one long day and never came out. One of our favorites was the story of my dad as a kid, hawking newspapers on the street corner, yelling, “Extra, extra, read all about it! Whorehouse burns down, leaving 3,000 Camp McCoy soldiers homeless!” Then there’s the long line of lushes we descend from, and fortunes won and lost thanks to the booze. Oh, and the dynamite. Those infernal sticks decimated half the men on my dad’s side of the family.

So he says.

 

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Boys and girls, you should HEAR my dad’s Navy stories.

 

If my dad were a writer, his stories would be memoir gold.

 

Thing is, my mom was the writer. While dad would tell us his tall tales, mom wrote the family stories down, like her dad did. Unfortunately many stories died with my mom and my grandpa and over the years, I’ve missed the black and white link to our heritage; of how much hen’s eggs cost in 1920 and how the whole town helped great-grandpa build his house in Fargo, North Dakota. Mom’s stories weren’t funny, but they were real and meaty and true. She also was our family transcriptionist. Somewhere there is a paper with every address to every house we ever lived in as a family. Somewhere else are journal snippets of us kids. Who polished his pennies every night before bed, who pulled his hair out in great clumps, who brought potato bugs to the dinner table, who devoured Nancy Drew under the bedsheets and eventually lost her eyesight to reading in the dark. The four of us are separated by distance and kids and time these days, but those stories bind us together across it all.

 

My mom passed away before I was married, before I had kids, before I was old enough to appreciate that each drop of my blood holds the DNA for thousands of stories and why that matters. When I was pregnant with Toots, I grew aware that we are all part of a chain and that a big link was irrevocably gone. I’d call my dad and ask, “What was mom like when she was pregnant with me?” “What was I like as a baby?” “Did mom sing to me?” and he didn’t have the answers. Here was my dad, the pied piper of stories, fresh out. I still don’t know if he couldn’t bear to think of my mom as young and alive, or if he just didn’t remember as he traveled so very much. Whatever the reason, I sensed the final and complete loss of my stories, the link to my mom, like a knife wound. A final cut. I imagined myself an astronaut, the kind from those B movies, who left the ship, got sucked into a black hole, and floated in the darkness for years, untethered and removed.

 

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Just told one of his stories. This was my mom’s quintessential reaction.

 

After awhile I gave up asking for the stories, until one day when my dad sent me an email, unbidden and surprising, with details of how he and my mom met. No tales. Just pure and simple, black and white stories. Then another email with more stories, and then more.

 

This is both welcome and heartbreaking. Does he feel the link might break again? Is he worried about floating in the darkness?

 

And then I think: a day must come when the storyteller realizes the stories he tells are not just for the listeners, they are for him too.

 

Or maybe, it’s like what he sent this morning in the last line of an email to my brother in Singapore, my sister in North Dakota, my other brother in New York, and me here in San Diego:

It’s good to make note of these things.

 

So that’s what I’ll do.

 

On September 20th, 2010, Smalltown Mom said:

Yes, it’s good. So many stories are lost on my mom’s side of the family. But my dad has written his autobiography, thanks to my prompting.

I just heard a fantastic story at a recent family reunion but I have to save it for a blog post.

On September 20th, 2010, Trish said:

I so relate to being pregnant and not having your mom. My mother died 2 years before I became a mother. My dad just doesn’t tell the stories or remember things like she did. I have about a million questions for her now (and at least twice as many apologies) that I have 3 kids.

It’s smart to write things down. So that even if we aren’t here to tell them, the stories and memories can live on.

On September 20th, 2010, Jack said:

This is part of why I blog- to record family history.

On September 20th, 2010, Jill said:

Oh you’re bringing me to tears lady. This … THIS is why I spend the time blogging… and photographing every single solitary thing my kids do. I want to remember. I want them to remember. I want them to be able to share their childhood with their own kids.

UGH, this makes my heart ache. I get it… I so get it.

On September 20th, 2010, Morgan B. said:

I loved reading this. I’m lucky to still have both my parents, and I can’t imagine going through motherhood without my own mother, but I was able to really feel the emptiness from loosing your mother before you had become one yourself. What a gift that your father is finally opening up and connecting to his past. The photos added such a personal touch. Thanks so much for sharing.

On September 20th, 2010, La Jolla Mom said:

It is indeed to good to make note of these things.

My Japanese grandparents were interred during WWII and it’s next to impossible to get my grandmother to tell stories about it. Every once in a while we get a snippet, but that’s it. Like her childhood Japanese dolls are buried under what is now a Macy’s in Sacramento (I think). Wasn’t cool to have those, so she ditched them quickly as possible.

Glad your dad is sharing, it most definitely is for him too! See you manana.

On September 20th, 2010, stephanie (bad mom) said:

What a good, smart dad you have. And girl – your mom’s profile is you. Gorgeous.

P.S. This can only be Sylvia Plathish is you’re a disturbed orphan; there is nothing morbid here at all. It’s lovely, charming, reverent, reverberating.

blessings, again <3

On September 20th, 2010, jessica said:

you write so beautifully and obviously, got the storytelling gene.

On September 21st, 2010, green girl in wisconsin said:

I once interviewed my grandma (now dead) on tape and I’m so glad I did. You are a good woman to get their words down.

On September 22nd, 2010, Mama Mary said:

Oh lordy. I love this post for so many reasons. One of them being the phrase “memoir gold.”
One story I’ve heard from both my parents is about the swiss army knife that my dad used to carry in his pocket. He ans my mom had been white water rafting when they were dating. One of the gals they were with somehow got one of the ropes that was tying two rafts together stuck caught around her neck. My mom somehow managed to get her hand in between the rope and the gal’s neck. Everyone was panicking and then finally someone busted out a pocket knife and was able to cut the rope, saving the gal’s life. The next day my dad went out and bought a knife and had one in his pocket every day for the rest of his life. He had a whole collection of them and my sisters and I all kept one after he died. I still have the red swiss army knife that he opened all our packages with every year on Christmas.
Thanks for reminding me of this story. : )
xoxo

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