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PROMPTuesday #177: Finding Your Bliss

January 10th, 2012

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I absolutely know I’ve posted different flavors of this PROMPT over the years, but I’m revisiting it now. Becoming who I’m meant to be is way on my mind these days because I’ve been fuzzy and auto-piloty for awhile. Like forever. I just did stuff. I let life lead me mostly, instead of leading life. I used to have a quote under my blog avatar that read:

“I’m a kid who never thought she’d be married or a mom.

Now I’m both.

And that’s just fine with me.”

 

And while the above is true, it’s also a fact that I never DID plan to be a wife OR a mother. I didn’t plan to be anything really, other than a writer, but I wasn’t so sure what that looked like. I believed that I was in a boat carried along by the tide, but not really creating my own waves.

 

And now? I’m sticking my arms out and generating a tsunami.

 

It’s …unsettling because I don’t want to move away from my family while I’m traveling closer to me. It feels a bit…selfish. As if carving out my own identity takes something away from them. Which it does, as in time and attention, and that pulls at my heart. But I so love what I’m doing now — which is finally writing what makes me happy and making it a “thing” that brings in an income (ever so small so far) — and is that wrong?

 

Lord, I hope not.

 

I mean, I’ve made money from writing before, just not the kind of writing that sustains me and grows my faith in self. I feel…like…I’m shining at the edges and expanding into something greater than me. And that I’m ready for it. Maybe that’s the difference. I feel like it’s…time. Perhaps this is the year for all of us. I want to believe that. I want your bliss to come to you STRONG and BRILLIANT.

 

Meanwhile, THIS is my bliss:

 

Making a living from writing. More than a living, a life. I want to create words and stories and be paid for them, although I’ll still do it unpaid (but don’t tell the Universe that…). I want my imagination to be made real. I want to afford and design a home for my family with beautiful living spaces inside and out — that we own, and keep to a schedule that allows me to feed my soul and my family. I want greater synchronicity with my husband and children. I want to keep learning and doing. I want all of us — each of us — to find our bliss and live it. This means, I want my girls to explore what interests them and pursue it if they want. I want my husband to find his thing and leave the stress of everything else behind. I want us all to be who we are meant to be.

 

As for you:

What does your bliss look like?

 

Please post your submission in the comments OR post in your blog and leave a link to your blog in the comments.

 

First time to PROMPTuesday? Read a bit about it here. Want to see what’s been written in the past? Catch up on the PROMPTuesdays archive here.

 

P.S. Please know that my friend, Jen, does this cool “Word of the Month” series, and the word THIS month is “intention.” Head over there if you’re feeling ambitious and link up!

 

On January 10th, 2012, Galit Breen said:

Oh yes, this. EXACTLY this.

Also? This line -move away from my family while I’m traveling closer to me- is right at the edge of my heart.

{Ouch}

Have I mentioned lately how much I love this series?

On January 10th, 2012, Sugar Jones said:

Self care is not selfish. It is good and necessary. And now I know what I’m writing about. God, I love you.

On January 10th, 2012, Indigo said:

My bliss was sadly missing last year. I kept thinking it literally got up and walked out the door on me.

This year I’m planning on living my bliss one word at a time and reconnecting with like souls (like yours). My bliss is way overdue to overflow into something wonderful and I wish the same and more for you sweet friend. (Hugs) Indigo

On January 10th, 2012, julie gardner said:

Ummm…is it wrong that I have pretty much the exact same bliss as you?

Even if it’s wrong, it’s true.

As for 2012. It smells good so far, right?
Or is that dinner?

Either way. I’ll take it.

On January 10th, 2012, Jessica said:

Is it okay if your bliss and Julie’s bliss is the same as mine? This whole post rings so true for me. Finally finding my space in writing has made such a difference in my life, paid or not it is so fulfilling. I’m glad you have found your place too.

On January 10th, 2012, SurferWife said:

My bliss includes salsa. And your butt.

On January 10th, 2012, Mad Woman behind the Blog said:

I knew I liked SurferWife.
Also, thank you…. I hadn’t been able to put my finger on it but synchronicity is EXACTLY what has been lacking in my marriage and exactly what I’ll be seeking…that and more salsa.

On January 11th, 2012, Leanne said:

My bliss is the same as yours, and the scariest part of the day is when I finish editing and have to click the send or publish button too. Good luck!

On January 11th, 2012, NotJustAnotherJen said:

Have I mentioned that you are ah-maz-ing? I really should read you more. I’m with you…I hear you sista. Thanks for the mention. xoxo

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