January 10th, 2012
(Photo from here)
I absolutely know I’ve posted different flavors of this PROMPT over the years, but I’m revisiting it now. Becoming who I’m meant to be is way on my mind these days because I’ve been fuzzy and auto-piloty for awhile. Like forever. I just did stuff. I let life lead me mostly, instead of leading life. I used to have a quote under my blog avatar that read:
“I’m a kid who never thought she’d be married or a mom.
Now I’m both.
And that’s just fine with me.”
And while the above is true, it’s also a fact that I never DID plan to be a wife OR a mother. I didn’t plan to be anything really, other than a writer, but I wasn’t so sure what that looked like. I believed that I was in a boat carried along by the tide, but not really creating my own waves.
And now? I’m sticking my arms out and generating a tsunami.
It’s …unsettling because I don’t want to move away from my family while I’m traveling closer to me. It feels a bit…selfish. As if carving out my own identity takes something away from them. Which it does, as in time and attention, and that pulls at my heart. But I so love what I’m doing now — which is finally writing what makes me happy and making it a “thing” that brings in an income (ever so small so far) — and is that wrong?
Lord, I hope not.
I mean, I’ve made money from writing before, just not the kind of writing that sustains me and grows my faith in self. I feel…like…I’m shining at the edges and expanding into something greater than me. And that I’m ready for it. Maybe that’s the difference. I feel like it’s…time. Perhaps this is the year for all of us. I want to believe that. I want your bliss to come to you STRONG and BRILLIANT.
Meanwhile, THIS is my bliss:
Making a living from writing. More than a living, a life. I want to create words and stories and be paid for them, although I’ll still do it unpaid (but don’t tell the Universe that…). I want my imagination to be made real. I want to afford and design a home for my family with beautiful living spaces inside and out — that we own, and keep to a schedule that allows me to feed my soul and my family. I want greater synchronicity with my husband and children. I want to keep learning and doing. I want all of us — each of us — to find our bliss and live it. This means, I want my girls to explore what interests them and pursue it if they want. I want my husband to find his thing and leave the stress of everything else behind. I want us all to be who we are meant to be.
As for you:
What does your bliss look like?
Please post your submission in the comments OR post in your blog and leave a link to your blog in the comments.
P.S. Please know that my friend, Jen, does this cool “Word of the Month” series, and the word THIS month is “intention.” Head over there if you’re feeling ambitious and link up!