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April 1st, 2010

How are the kids?” he asked during a routine work conversation.


I try to keep it short and sweet. “Good,” I say. “Toots turned 6 last month and Booger will be 4 next week.”


I could add more, so much more, but don’t want to bore him.


Turns out I can’t help myself and go on a bit longer, ever mindful of the time. There’s not enough words to say what I want to anyway…


…That Toots is a goof, but so emotional I wonder at the ferocity of her feelings. Last week she wrote, “I no I have a gaet life but it dusit seym rit” and tears sprung to my eyes. Such words for a little girl. When I asked her about it she laughed and said she just felt like writing it down. It didn’t seem as if she took it — or me — seriously and thank God for that, I think. With Toots, the wave of emotion goes up, the wave of emotion goes down. Most of the time, I try to meet her at the tide’s peak, but I worry. Then, I catch a glimpse of her playing outside, helmet askew, gliding on her scooter or hamming it up with a neighbor and I can’t take my eyes of her. My little goobie. I love how she collects flowers and “decorates the neighborhood,” strewing petals on thresholds and front stoops. How she reads everything, toothpaste tubes included. How she rubs her feet together and flashes her dimples. How she wants to be an illustrator and makes storybooks and has dreams and asks to plant a “popcorn tree.”




Those things aren’t captured in simple answers to polite questions.




And Booger. My sweet sweet baby girl with her painted toes and flower fingers. Her dresses of gauze and gloves of lace and the ponytail she keeps checking to see if it’s there. She’s grown into her face now and the baby is leaving. I still sneak into her room to watch her sleeping because that’s when she looks most like the little girl who used to sleep on my chest at one month old. Sometimes I kiss her too hard and she wakes up, shooing me away. She laughs in her sleep and it’s the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen. People tell her she’s gorgeous and I’m sure it’s going to her head, but there’s a light within her and it’s not hiding in a bushel.


Light. Both of them light.




That answer should suffice.


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On April 1st, 2010, Smalltown Mom said:

They are beautiful.

On April 1st, 2010, Barrie Summy said:

They are both adorable!

On April 1st, 2010, Jenn @ Juggling Life said:

Complicated, but beautiful–just like their mama.

On April 1st, 2010, Laurie Ann said:

What lucky little girls to have a mom who sees them so clearly for who they are. You just made me cry a little.

On April 1st, 2010, Bejewell said:

You can take as much time as you want with me, if you’re talking about those gorgeous girls!

On April 1st, 2010, kate said:

Sometimes you write something and I think it’s the best thing I’ve ever ready. This is one. What words you have. You always get the right words in the right order at just the right moment.

On April 1st, 2010, kate said:


Also? You make me want to write.

On April 1st, 2010, Melanie @ Mel, A Dramatic Mommy said:

So beautiful. The words and those little angels.

On April 2nd, 2010, Maureen@IslandRoar said:

Oh, you’ve put this so beautifully. And the girls are lovely!

On April 2nd, 2010, Mama Mary said:

Light is right! Simply gorgeous and lovely.
I do that same thing with my little Lexi. How do they grow so fast?

On April 3rd, 2010, green girl in Wisconsin said:

YOu would make people’s day if you handed out printed copies of this post. Seriously.
And your younger? Looks just like you.

On April 4th, 2010, chitownlis said:

Ohhhhhh! So very sweet… They are so adorable! I miss them… I need to come visit. Tell them Auntie Lisa misses them. :)

On April 5th, 2010, g said:

So sweet. What lovely girls.

Just checking in with you about the quake – making sure you’re OK. Any stories to tell?

On April 5th, 2010, Danielle said:

So beautiful…your writing and the girls.

On April 6th, 2010, MomZombie said:

All these moments are the true beauty of motherhood and parenthood. It’s not in all the extra-curriculars we often choose to brag about when we answer such chit-chat conversations.(He’s the top goal scorer on his team! She speaks fluent Russian!) It’s the dimples and the flower strewing and the little written notes and drawings found folded in a toy purse. Beautiful post.

On October 5th, 2010, Erika said:

*gasp* beautiful and I know exactly how you feel!

Thank you for sharing!

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