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Just Write

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I can’t pinpoint when it happened, this slow eke of confidence. I turn to my husband and say, “But I want to be extraordinary!” and he tells me I’m enough and I don’t believe him.

 

There are words that shine and some that glower, and punch and twinkle and illuminate and waltz and float and eat your brain, and I want to write all of them. I don’t want to apologize, say “I think” or “P.S.” or “Not right now.” The spiral tightens around my fingers, a paralyzing net, and all because I’m tired and processing and pulling paragraphs out of my head like earthworms from dirt.

 

Was there a time I had something to say?

 

Did it matter?

 

I read a lot about going beyond or deep or elsewhere. Stretching the boundaries of how you write and what; yet I spend so much time watching how others do it that I can’t beckon my worms anymore.

 

It’s always been my bane: No confidence and comparison. There’s two of us: The one who writes anyway and the one who wants to be extraordinary and ties hands beyond backs.

 

I search for the writing I want to be, and it leads to self flagellation and bone beating and soul crushing. I can’t reach beyond, I can’t get there, I don’t have it in me.

 

What if that’s true?

 

I ask the one who writes anyway.

 

This was her answer.

 

Written through inspiration from Heather’s Just Write series.

 

 

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March 13, 2012 · 8 Comments

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  1. Trish says

    March 13, 2012 at 11:17 am

    Yes! We must listen more to the one who writes anyway.

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  2. heidi says

    March 13, 2012 at 2:07 pm

    Beautiful. Inspirational. Listen to the one who urges you to write anyway. Because you do it so well.

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  3. Julia says

    March 13, 2012 at 2:18 pm

    Love this. I will try to always remember to write anyway.

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  4. Indigo says

    March 13, 2012 at 4:36 pm

    I do that self flagellation thing way too much. I bleed down to bone and still don’t think it’s enough…

    I need to listen to the one who writes more than the one who doubts. Love this post! (Hugs)Indigo

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  5. Alexandra says

    March 13, 2012 at 4:54 pm

    Just write.

    No way around it, only through it.

    Reply
  6. Heather says

    March 13, 2012 at 6:06 pm

    You are extraordinary. Write on despite it all because you are a beautiful story.

    Reply
  7. Green Girl in Wisconsin says

    March 14, 2012 at 6:22 am

    That’s the tricky part–writing past the safety zone.

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  8. julie gardner says

    March 14, 2012 at 11:36 am

    I think I have the same two-of-me as you do.

    Except I also have a third who is tired and just wants to eat a bag of Ruffles and take a nap.

    She’s the loud one.

    Reply

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