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The Walking Dead

Etcetera, Indie Ink

It’s IndieInk Writing Challenge day! This one comes from Miss Ash, who prompted a quote from the book Little Bee:

“I could not stop talking because now I had started my story, it wanted to be finished. We cannot choose where to start and stop. Our stories are the tellers of us.”

 

And so I begin:

 

I must have been about five when my dad took him in. Yes, five. It was 1973. His wife left him a few weeks prior, and so had his liver. Even at my age, I knew he was dying. But that’s what my dad did: took in the dying. I grew accustomed to cots placed in the kitchen, leaden with the weight of those fighting their last days. It wasn’t the smell that was the worst, it was the knowing. I wouldn’t see Barbara again or Em or Jane. Or I would, and that was the worst.

 

When my dad brought my uncle home to die on the yellow scratchy couch in our basement, I turned my head. But I never could help looking back. And there it was: gray skin, muddy eyes, grimaced lips. He waved. I waved back. I didn’t like to go in the basement after that.

 

Of course I had to. To bring glasses of water, bites of toast, boxes of tissue. His hands often reached for mine, they were cold, but I tolerated his grasp. I remember looking at my young plump hands resting in his crepe paper palm, and I shiver. Some memories you wish you could squeeze out like toothpaste from the tube and wash down the drain. “He doesn’t have long,” my dad told me.

 

I hoped he was right.

 

I see him next in the VA hospital. He tries to take my hands one last time. I say no, or at least I meant to. An adult now, I see how these things can happen.

 

After he died, I visited my cousin in the home she once shared with my aunt and the man with the crepe paper hands. She was cleaning out his things. Rattling bottles of vodka, crumbling notebooks, an old signet ring. A small spider scurried out of a box and scrambled over her hand. Noticing my revulsion, she told me, “I used to be afraid of them too. But now I just let let them crawl over me and I’m not so scared.”

 

I was only five. But I knew what she meant.

 

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  1. Miss Ash says

    March 10, 2011 at 10:53 am

    You did a great job with this one!! *shudder*

    Reply
  2. Karla says

    March 10, 2011 at 11:09 am

    How hard it is for a child to live among the “walking dead.” As kids, our perspective on the situation is so removed and abstract and as we near that end ourselves, the childhood blinders come off and we learn how to not be scared of “the spiders” crawling all over us. This was a lovely piece!

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  3. You can call me, 'Sir' says

    March 10, 2011 at 11:30 am

    Wonderfully done.

    Reply
  4. Indigo says

    March 10, 2011 at 12:04 pm

    Hauntingly visceral. (Hugs)Indigo

    Reply
  5. Mimi says

    March 10, 2011 at 3:08 pm

    I just saw you on Jackson, MS 4pm news! You looked fabulous!

    Reply
  6. flutter says

    March 10, 2011 at 8:12 pm

    Oh this made me bawl.

    Reply
  7. Mandy says

    March 10, 2011 at 8:15 pm

    Wow. Well done.

    Reply
  8. A Lil' Irish Lass says

    March 10, 2011 at 9:41 pm

    “Some memories you wish you could squeeze out like toothpaste from the tube and wash down the drain.”

    Fantastic.

    Reply
  9. Wendryn says

    March 10, 2011 at 9:50 pm

    “I used to be afraid of them too.”

    You did a beautiful job with this. Very affecting.

    Reply
  10. we_be_toys says

    March 10, 2011 at 11:03 pm

    Woof! That was a gut wrencher – nicely done!

    Reply
  11. green girl in wisconsin says

    March 11, 2011 at 7:48 am

    damn, woman. brilliant.

    Reply
  12. Nathan Pralle says

    March 11, 2011 at 7:51 am

    Full of imagery! Wow. That spider anecdote was so well done. Very, very impressive. I can’t imagine being exposed to such things as a child.

    Reply
  13. tinsenpup says

    March 12, 2011 at 2:52 am

    ‘…now I just let them crawl over me.’ Extraordinary. Beautifully written, Deb.

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  14. Marian says

    March 12, 2011 at 7:50 am

    ooohhhhh. crawling! very dark and sad.
    (i must confess, i spent last night in a Walking Dead marathon and it colored my reading of your piece! *shudder*)

    Reply
  15. Jason Hughes says

    March 12, 2011 at 9:12 am

    Such powerful hindsight… Wonderfully written…

    Reply
  16. flutter says

    March 13, 2011 at 3:53 pm

    You are wonderful.

    Reply
  17. Caroline says

    March 15, 2011 at 2:40 pm

    It really shows how talented you are as a writer…I enjoy reading it,well done!!

    Reply

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