This Sunday’s Playlist is dedicated to my mom, Angela, who would have been 67 today. (Please note that if you do follow that link above, I included it in the interest of full disclosure. I wasn’t all light and rainbows when it came to my mom. In fact, after she died, I was still angry at her — angry that she succumbed, that she wasn’t stronger, that she didn’t rail against death; scream and fight to live. That’s when I wrote the poem. And I feel bad about it, but it memorializes my experience of her death, and I need it to exist.)
Anyway. About the playlist:
her favorite song was “Amazing Grace,” and I think of her whenever I hear it, so it had to be here.
The Indigo Girl’s “Power of Two” is included on this playlist because I once told my mom that I’d dedicate it to my Dad at his funeral, and I remember her pause, as if perhaps hurt that our relationship didn’t inspire such song dedications. I never dreamed that a year later, I’d be attending her funeral.
Elton John’s “Sorry Seems to Be The Hardest Word,” was our theme song. I’d play it after many an argument, and it always reminds me of us.
Finally, at my wedding, I played Enya’s “On My Way Home,” and I include its lyrics here to mark her birthday.
I have been given
one moment from heaven
as I am walking
surrounded by night,
Stars high above me
make a wish under moonlight.
On my way home
I remember
only good days.
On my way home
I remember
only best days.
On my way home
I can remember every new day.
I move in silence
with each step taken,
snow falling round me
like angels in flight,
Far in the distance
is my wish under moonlight.
On my way home
I remember
only good days
On my way home
I remember all
the best days
And on my way
home I can remember
every new day.
On my way Home
I remember all the good days
PLAYLIST FOR ANGELA
On My Way Home/Enya
Language or the Kiss/Indigo Girls
Amazing Grace/Mahalia Jackson
Accidentally Like a Martyr/Warren Zevon
No Blue Sky/Thorns
Sail Away/David Gray
Do You Realize?/Flaming Lips
For A Dancer/Jackson Browne
Far Away/Nickelback
Rowing Song/Patty Griffin
Sorry Seems to be the Hardest Word/Elton John
Power of Two/Indigo Girls
Cheri says
Hugs and kisses to you.
My mom’s birthday is/was (don’t know if she’s dead or alive) April 14, 1941. Hmmmm.
Jenn @ Juggling Life says
The anniversary of my mom’s death is coming up. She was 61 when she died. Like yours, it was a complicated relationship.
I wish I knew music well enough to do such a great playlist.
Kendra says
Once again I am reminded to try to patch it up with my mom.
The picture of your mom is beautiful, and her birthday dedication post was wonderful and thoughtful.
Cascia @ Healthy Moms says
Such a wonderful tribute to your mom! By the way, tag your it.
matteroffactmommy says
this is fantastic. thank you for opening yourself up like this. i sincerely appreciate it…
i like the dimple in her chin! ;)
Jamie says
Love your honesty here. As Jenn said, it is a complicated relationship, that of mother-daughter. We navigate now as both…
Beautiful song choices.
mommypie says
This is beautiful Deb. And she’s beautiful. There’s no mistaking you’re her daughter — the two of you look SO alike!